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Needlework

by Úna Ní Cheallaigh

 

You scoured Hickey’s bargain basement

for a remnant of Japanese shot silk;

winged patterns of jade, lapis lazuli,

vermilion blossoms cool against skin.

 

I admired the cushions you made,

envied you your skill -

(a lift in mood, euphoric in hindsight).

 

The night before, we ate Turkish Delight,

drank tea from tulip glasses

I’d brought from Istanbul.

 

How come I didn’t notice -

catch the subtext in the pause?

The part you played and I was convinced.

(The detailed plan already made.)

 

I search for traces of a scene

I can’t bear to imagine,

trying to unpick what I missed.

 

I find cushions

 

neatly placed on your bed,

bias-binding ribbons loosely tied.

Kenzo floral lost in Dettol’s heavy smell.

 

Specks of blood like pinpricks on the rug -

all traces of pills, booze, Gillette blades

cleared away.

 

I sit out the crucial days waiting

for the hospital to ring.

Wander in rooms,

searching for remnants.

 

When I visit

you show me wrists

stitched with black silk thread.

 

Quarryman

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